A temporary Hiatus

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August 24, 2015


Well, I've had a really hard time these last couple of months. A lot of things have happened. Some of them were quite good (like I got 1500 instagram followers in less than a month since I started) and I am thankful for them, and some have been a little devastating.
So, I'll be going away from all my social media (i.e., Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, Instagram, Google+ and all). I don't know how long I'll be gone, but it won't be more than a month.

The reason for this hiatus is because I am going through some tough times right now and I need to take some decisions that are going to change my life forever. Currently I am being torn between choosing a safe secure path like everyone else around me or choose to follow my heart despite the circumstances I am in right now. And trust me, it's the scariest thing that I've ever done in my life. Knowing, that the path you're going to choose isn't a well trodden one and that there are no guarantees about whether you're going to succeed or not is quite nerve wrecking. Especially if you've been brought up in an environment where everyone is always freaking about this illusive thing called the future. And when your circumstances are shit and you know that even the people closest to you (like your parents) might not support you in this venture, that you will be walking this road alone, can be enough to send you into bouts of depression. It's easy to just say "go follow your heart" when you're not in such a risky situation yourself. But when everyone has pinned all their hopes on you, it feels really bad to think about abandoning them. I know, I am doing this so that I can be happy and then make them happy but I don't know myself if this is going to work out or not and it's just that little "what if I fail?" that has been eating away at me lately.

You now, it's just one of those situations where you jump and learn how to fly on the way down and I know I must take this leap of faith but first I need to let go of all this baggage that is holding me here. So, I'll be taking a break to collect my thoughts and gather all the courage I need to finally let go of it all and just take the chance. I know that thinking about things never really helps in these kind of situations so I am merely trying to eliminate everything that might act as a distraction. You always make a snap judgement in the end anyway, I am just tired of trying to delay it further and further until a perfect time.

Don't worry, I'm not as depressed as it looks from this post. I'll be back soon enough, and I'll start posting reviews again. And maybe I'll even get back to playing League of Legends (not that I was a famous player or anything). Also, I'll start a little series of my own where I'll just talk about everyday things and my thoughts on some of the things that I really find wrong with the way we've been living. It will be more or less of a rant (not anime related) and I'll probably include some philosophy in there. So, look forward to it if you're interested in that sort of thing. Please bear with me as I get myself back on track. Thanks for reading this sort of a mundane post.

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August 25, 2015 at 4:31 AM delete

I feel you... I'm studying biology right now and I'm almost done. There doesn't seem much of a future for me in terms of "choosing a safe secure path"... I'm realizing this after 3 years of studying, and realized I have to study more (like going to med school) if I want to make use of my science degree. It sucks since I don't want to go to school anymore/ don't have any more much to pay tuition fees!

I'm in the same boat as you, trying to figure it out when the time comes when I have to graduate :( I freaks me out when I think about it. So I'm trying to explore this internet/blogging & potential youtube alternatives even though it's tough and will take a long while to become successful (hopefully) while walking down this path. I'm looking at alternative career paths - though it seems hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you don't know which direction you want to head in.

Kudos to you for taking time off and planning things out for the future. We're more alike than I thought we were originally! We started anime blogging around the same time and you have supported me all the way through! Thank you for commenting on my MAL that day otherwise I'd probably stop anime blogging after the first few weeks. Best wishes, and you have my support on w/e decisions you decide to make! Come back soon!!!

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